Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Sisterly Love - Part 2

I am absolutely loving the relationship between my girls right now. They have a genuine love for each other and every once there is a moment that really highlights that bond.

They recently decided to share a bed and I was worried it would be a mistake. But so far they have really enjoyed it and so have I.

Every morning I look forward to going in their to wake them up. But this morning I wasn't ready for what I saw.

As I ran to get my camera to capture the moment I just prayed they wouldn't wake up. Pretty sure I took about a hundred pictures before finally waking them up.

They were both sound asleep and neither remembers making a move to hold hands.

oh my heart...

Monday, August 10, 2015

One on One Time: Sushi & Baseball

Tonight I got to spend some quality one-on-one time with my oldest daughter.

I love one-on-one time. And I know that as she gets older it's going to become more and more important to set this kind of quality time aside.

Last year we went to a couple of Vancouver Canadians baseball games and at each one M expressed an interest in attending one without her little sister...the queen of distractions.

And so that's what we did - with a little sushi and conversation to start us of.

We talked her excitement and fear about starting grade 4 and getting letter grades. We talked about boys and ear piercing. And we talked about her feelings about our family...and the separation.

That was tough. Because she was looking for reassurance from me. Confirmation that now that Daddy was home it meant he would never leave again.

And I had to do the dance. Because I don't want to lie but I also don't want her to live in fear or worry. it's a fine line to navigate because she's a smart kid.

Real talk over it was time to watch some baseball...

and to eat:

It was a beautiful night for a ballgame.

And I had a great time with my beautiful first born.

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Birthday Love

Part of my new goal of putting myself first meant that I chose to spend my birthday weekend in Victoria without my kids. I don't like to be away from them on special occassions but it was the right decision for me.

And really it was a bonus for me in the end because I got to milk an extra day of brithday celebrations out of them.

We took an early ferry home and that messed up their plans for me. So i spent a couple of hours sequestered in the bedroom as they prepared a special treat for me...

And it was special indeed...truly made with love. I heard it!


Happy 27th (again!) to me!

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Throwback Thursday - Vegas Baby!

I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since our Vegas trip.

Despite the fact that I was in a dark place emotionally...there were a lot of laughs and some truly awesome moments.

And we did look good...

Monday, July 27, 2015

Go Camping They Said. It'll Be Fun They Said.

For the past 3 summers we have gone camping for a weekend with two other families. Six kids, six adults and lots of laughs. That's been the usual formula.

This year the weather decided to mess with us and throw a wrench into our well oiled plans. After 3 months of dry and sunny weather Mother Nature decided that the best time to schedule our first rainfall would be on our camping weekend.

And this wasn't just a little was a full on storm. And it collapsed tarps and soaked tents. It made us all grumpy and wet and miserable.

And a myriad of other Murphy's Law experiences ensured that it would be a weekend to live in infamy.

The good news is that we survived. And that the sun came out on Saturday morning and reminded us that not all was lost.

And at the end of the weekend all of the kids declared it to be the best camping trip ever. Mission accomplished.


We crammed a whole bunch of stuff in this car...

great campsite...but not nearly enough trees to secure tarps too...

trying to keep the ground dry for our friends didn't really work.

even on a cloudy day this lake is so beautiful.

as soon as the rain stopped we busted out the frisbee...

took a walk through the woods...

and posed for a selfie.

Searching for the perfect rock to put in their summer memories jar.

tough decision.

happy with their selections. Phew!

it was so nice to have a propane fire to keep us warm.

family photo right before our lake swim at dusk. It was light when we went in but dark by the time we got out.
camping is tiring...

Until next year...

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Nanny turns 92

Today the family all got together to celebrate my Nanny's 92nd birthday. 

Over the past few years we have seen a significant decline in her. Both pysically and mentally.  We have prepared ourselves for the possibilty that this could be our last Christmas/Easter/Birthday.  I have even had tough talks with my girls to try and prepare them for that eventuality.

But she keeps hanging on and oh how we love her for it.


 The girls both made her cards that they proudly gave and read to her.

Happy Birthday Nanny!  We all love you so much.


Sunday, July 19, 2015

Coming Full Circle

Last March I went through a personal "re-branding" when I changed the name of my blog (and corresponding social media accounts) to Write. Run. Mum.

At the time I really felt like it was the right decision.  That having the same moniker for all my online endeavours was really just good marketing. Especially if I was going to try and turn my blog into something more than just an online diary for my family and friends to read and maybe (one day) make some money from it.

Also - I really hoped the new title would help me focus on those three very important areas in my life. And for a while it worked...I guess.

But to be totally never felt right. I'm not exactly sure why that is. I suspect it's because I made the change for the wrong reasons. It wasn't a decision I made with my heart. I was trying to force this change on myself in the hopes that it would help me change my life.

And really I think it's done the opposite. I feel like the new identity has turned me into a bit of a fraud.  Well 2 thirds of a fraud at least because the Mum part was always true.

I know I won't ever monetize my blog...that was never really my intention anyways. I don't want to write reviews or do giveaways. I don't care about the number of people that follow me on social media or even read my posts for that matter.

You know...I have been thinking about making this change for months and kept wavering. But I have been finding myself more and more blocked in a creative sense. Handcuffed by the expectation I set on myself that I have to write about writing. Or running. Or parenting. And when I didn't have anything to say on those subjects...I didn't have anything to say at all.

And then today - I found this quote in my Facebook feed.  From the author of Writing Down the Bones. From the author whose book helped me find my written voice.

And I just knew this was the right time. So - it is with a renewed sense of self - and a strong conviction that I am going back to my original identity. 

I write for me. And for my girls. I write to give me an outlet and a release. And I always endeavour to ensure I am Writing Down the Bones.

And at heart...I am still my Poppa's little Kelsey Bar.

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